somebody, someday

the latest question i just typed into google.

probably time for bed.

i think that there really should be an ultimate hype about something that you can buy off of the internet as easily as a spice girl’s album from play.com; sincerely, there really should. i’ve been surprisingly care-free when it’s come to playing with drugs, with many available readily for the delectation of anybody looking for a good night; a good night that you wouldn’t remember however.

advertised as plant feed from the site i bought it from, it arrived two days later. i had to sign for the package but being as i was at work, it got held at the local depot. there’s definitely something concerning about collecting “drugs” from your local post office but hey, welcome to the modern world. the mephedrone itself looked very similar to mdma, yet a much more fluffy subtance than its illegal counterpart.

i bombed it at around 8pm and an hour later, i was off it and i only recall a handful of things from a nine hour binge out in town. however, i’ve felt the pain of it since… as i sit with a mouthful of bonjela from my cut up mouth and lips full with vaseline due to my lips being chapped, i’m sitting here thinking whether this new craze will actually catch on or not. well, i guess in all honesty, i fear that it’s going to catch on and get out of hand. something like this shouldn’t be so easily available. gone will be the times when you sneak around church graveyards or backstreets to meet your dealer; arriving are the days you recieve 10 grams of mmcat with your latest phone bill. scary thought, scary times we live in.

yet it’s worth trying once, it really will blow your mind.

this weekend i have been encouraged by my dad into thinking about getting my act together, moving out and growing up basically. now, i’ve always sat back and admired those who had direction in their life from an early age, those who knew what they wanted to do, how they wanted to do it and even who they wanted to do! but i’ve never been like that, it’s only a happy coincidence that i manage to wake up every morning because i certainly don’t plan to do so.

i never had a dream of being anything as a child, the only thing i really wanted to be was a footballer and now that has passed me by, so much so that it’s hard to watch 16/17 year olds playing on the big stage whilst i sit on my arse playing my xbox 360 every night, thinking i’m the dogs bollocks cause i’ve beat some 11 year old kid 4-0 on fifa or something.

i guess we all have our simple pleasures but then how simple would it have been to have just turned left that day, instead of right?

i guess it’s all very sliding doors, it’s all karma, fate or whatever you want to say but we’re all made of the same shit. skin, bones, rudey bits, hair, dirty thoughts, talents and what not, so why do people end up as multi-million pound footballers and others end up like me, doing pretty much nothing of interest?
nature, nurture whatever it may be. everybody has a choice. i’m only here because i chose to be and nothing else around me has affected me and my decisions because i’m the one who has made the decision to be where i am today.

i know that i’ll be somebody someday, i also know that i’ll hope to be nobody one day but right now, this very second… my name’s connor quigley, i’m 21 years old and i’m pretty happy where i’m at.

fuck change.

p.s i love and respect my dad more than anybody in the world. if i turned out to be half the man he is, i’ll be very lucky and so will my future kids, who write blogs like this on their super 3D flying computers that make you breakfast and shit like that

that i have two people on here that are hell bent on depressing me.

(YES YOU BOTH WALCH AND GONZALEZ!)

cheer up with your sad blogs! think friday.

poisonrosepixie:

Alexxxtimestwo says: Connor is a faggggg and we are his haggggsss.

fools!

connor benjamin. says:

 footballio tonight

KrissieTRON               I got this Icebox where my heart used to be. I’m so cold. says:

yay! i have been waiting to see this game for ages, i’ve really started to love football because of you connor! you’re just so amazing… and wow, have i ever told you that you make my v-dong blush?

connor benjamin. says:

oh, gonzalez, you charmer… ;)

alexxxtimestwo:

You loveable loveable fool.

You should be gay so I can be your fag hag.

haha, you twirp

for £50.

memory foam apparently. ha.